x)). yawns.
hmmmmm...
mediacorp people's alittle blur on wednesday.
actually that day is got shooting at a pub.
then on that day itself,
when we have already arrived at the destination,
they realised they booked the wrong area.
which is not suitable for shooting.
so that day shooting is being cancelled.

But not bad, at least i got free $$ for that day.
hope everyday is like that. LOL.
got to make a new friend too.
i think it sorta become a make-friend-session.
xDD.
But well didnt get to flirt with the Janet tho (actor in the show)
im wondering is it ling xiang ping or the other girl(dont know what's her name).

xiang ping look chio which her rebonded hair. weeuwee.
haha. hmm dont know when the shooting wil be postoned until.
well... just got myself an enhancement operation for my right eye yesterday (thursday). walau. who say not pain. LOL.
i guess my eye isn't sensitive enough to let the numb eye drops take effect.

i felt and saw the whole thing tho.
the doctor cutting your cornea n everything.
my heartbeat is heavy. can feel it slowing down.
o.o.
people go throught operation once.
i gone through twice... hmm. well but at least vision's better now.
omgf swollen eyes. HOW TO ACT! T.T
have to rest well.....
hope the acting day would be postone till the day whereby i already recover.
so i can make up =D. but... i guess that would be hard.
coz... it takes 2 weeks here to at least can do hair n make up.
=(. maybe i have to give the role to people le.
awww. zz-ed

3 blog posts at one go.
haha power.
guess today really filled with emotions and stuffs.
Hmmm. alright go for something not so emotional now. haha.
Well.. my blog has been wordy. Guess i should upload afew pictures =]].

But before that, i would like to announce something.
Please support the new show that i will be acting in.
Show title: 想握你的手
Role: 有型男
Role's duty: kena flirt by a woman.

LMAO. funny right.
alright here's some random pictures

im xiao meimei ^^ (tied by supervisor)






my pay cheque finally (so little)

My supervisor and I had a little misunderstanding just now.
She cried infront of me.
Guess she really cherish the relationship between us.
she thought i doubt her and that she's selfish.
which actually i didn't and wont cause i know her too well.
Guess she really mind how i think of her because we have been on really good terms.
we're more than just supervisor and partner relationship.

well she's like a big sister to me.
always protecting, praising and playing with me.
her words today really touched me.
when she thought that i doubt her,
she's very anxious and also very sad.
she said , in chinese of course...

"Dylan.. u have been working here for quite sometime.
I have been working here for 1year plus i haven been so close with a part timer before. u're like a younger brother to me. i told u everything and anything which i've never told anyone before. working with you i am really very happy as u really brighten up my life. i really cherish the relationship between us. u cant doubt me like this. i can be selfish to everyone else but not to u. u should know me. i really cherish our relationship. Even if u're not wrking here we will stil keep in touch. u're a v good and kind boy. u're a fren tt i really cherish and wont regret making..."

i didnt doubt her at all tho.
it's not like i mind that commission at all for just $5.
the company policy is that for each individual who do $500 a day get extra $5.
she did $517
i did $485
she thought that i blame her for not trying to help me get that extra $15 when i tried to her help many other times before. she offered that the $5 that she get for achieving $500, we spilt half.
i told her " u ok with it?"
what i meant is that i feel paiseh for spilting the $5 commission with her.
but she thought that i blamed her for like being selfish and stuff.
so that's the misunderstanding.

But it's this misunderstanding which make me realised more that she's really a good friend and partner. really hard to find one who really cherish nowadays.
felt sry for this little misunderstanding which made her cry.

just came back not long.
hmm saw 2 letters on my table.
one is the credit card bill.
one is my pay cheque.
my bill...
400+. sianned.
i spend on eat eat eat eat eat !
-__-.


my pay cheque.
from mediacorp.
so happy and sian diao in a sense.
the pay cheque only pay for my 2nd working day which is 24 july.
the 22 july pay dont know fly till where.
i guess it's the switching of blue to yellow paper agreement that causes confusion.


haiyo... guess tml have to contact my agent liao.
mafan mafan mafan!!
why that guy dont just do it properly.
tell me earlier that blue paper for above 21 ma.
then dont need to switch here and there.
in the end i guess should be you either write wrong address or what.
my pay dont know deliver to which household.


jia wei ah jia wei~~~~
how can you like that..... LOL.
u are going to get a scolding from my agent or mediacorp liao.
sry in advance. =l

what am i still asking for?
I no longer know.
Seriously.
I'm planning a family outing next month.
planning to go chalet.
hmm everything is almost properly done.
chalet has been booked, activities planned as well.
7 7 8 8 liao i guess.

Although the world and life may be complicated,
but sometimes things can be really simple as well.
i dont know why...
when i saw my mom planning what to buy for BBQ,
suddenly i felt really happy inside.
I guses im happy because i know she is very happy and excited about it.
i know my mom suffered alot all the way from the past.
So i really wanna do things which can make her happy.

a family outing.
something which seem so simple,
we didnt really have it.
Guess it's always dad who is missing out.
and sooner or later when i didnt even noticed, im missing out.

The reason im organising this and am really firm about it is because,
i wanna make my mom happy, really happy this time.
when she's happy, i am.
reason being she's really a great mom.
really great.

no matter how close,
we all distant one day.
no matter how well treated by you in the past,
it all belongs to the past, everything,
from that day i confronted you and you said it's a misunderstanding,
i know it's not and it's all the way up till today that make it so vividly clear that i should let it go.
Reality really slap you right at the face.
Stop whining for the past and accept the harsh present.
Move on.


Im starting to ask myself,
why am i so serious?
why did i hold on to it so dearly?
why did i speak up for this relationship when it's being stepped on?
why say that it's different?


I've regretted cherishing our so closely bonded relationship which seemed so true.
I've regretted opening up myself once again for you, trouncer.
I've got nothing but whole lot of disappointment in the end.
i am disappointed in our relationship,
disappointed in you,
disappointed in myself for trusting and treating you for real.


Let me tell you and myself once again
We are no longer the same.
and Damn...
It's no misunderstanding.
Alright?

Guess I won't be the same anymore.
hahaha! =D