yawned.

Have been long ever since i last blogged.
I'm kind of busy with my... Work? or NS?
well they both meant the same to me now.
Busy practising my music pieces, theory, aural and marching for exam.
Its weird to say there's exam when im serving NS. haha.
Here's something which will get u guys more surprised.
I've actually got homework too man. haha.
Hmm so basically im all strss up with all these things now.
Hope i get to pass with flying colours... as it comes with a cert too as well.
haha.

It's 2010 now and im trying hard to forget every unhappy moments in 2009.
BUT it's more easy to say than its done.
esp that matter.
fuck that is seriously too much to take.
i guess i'll live with all these phoebias now.
No hope no pain right?
But its hard not to hold any hope especially to things that matters alot.
u cant possibly dont care about it nor let it go.
So u cant help but kept worrying and hoping for a change.

Did i get anyone of u confused here? xD.
I guess im the only one who know what im talking about now.
Sooo.. ye.
Anyway let's just talk about something light here.
I realised something.
in SAF Band. people are not just very good with music.
They are good with other things too.
Like... Ping Pong like example?
My seniors play ping pong just professionals sia.
Seriously professional man.

In the saf band, people have their own respective instrument to play.
Other than that, i realised they actually know other instruments as well.
like piano... trombone or euphonium.
i seldom praise anyone nor really look up to anyone so far.
But ever since i entered SAF band,
i get to see all the talented people in singapore.
all the number ones seems to be all gathered here.

Seriously not joking.
they have got the ranking in singapore.
i can only open my eyes big big, looking at them and "waaa".
Everytime when the upper class people came in and talked to us they will normally say...
You guys are the chosen one among the best of best.
So everything shouldn't pose a problem to you guys.
I often felt good listening and proud to be part of the chosen ones.
but that will get me thinking...
am i really this good?
But whatever it is, i guess i shall just try my best here.

But one thing here not so pleasant is that there's politician here.
Strong competitions, gossips and complications.
Every step made here must be thought carefully or i guess u'll suffer for long.
So i only talk and joke necessary.
Or u'll be outcast, hated or a topic to talk about.
I guess that's life, its the same everywhere.
as humans are seriously fucked up.