Guard Duty?

yeah damn right.
im doing guard duty right now.
and im blogging right now too.
hahaha.
damn too bored man .
aint got nothing to do.
so i guess i'll use the computer =D.
there's no one here tho.... except with my partner xD.

He's off for a jog...
so i guess that left only me alone now,
to emo.
xDD. hahaha.
well...
when can i get to ORD?!!
haha alright i shouldn't have complain .
hmmm ...
Life's good.
Night snack is waiting for me on the table....
and.....
i get to sleep in an air conditioned room tonight.
how great eh?
haha. stayin here is much better than sleeping in bunk.
Ahhhhh.. i should have brought over my tibits and chips..
XDXDXD but i guess its ok.

Hmmmmm....
somehow,
i feel so empty inside.
its like something is missing..
and then... i received a msg from baobei in the messenger.
ya. i guess i know now.
this empty feeling is due to the fact of not spendin enough time with her the past weekend.

Im shocked to say that i miss her.
shocked indeed.
at least i still do.
that's somehow a good sign right?

Motivation

Hi im back =D.
hmmm just have an OCS parade yesterday which lasted till quite late. =(.
This have been going on for the whole of the week, including this saturday which is the actual parade.
I've been in the band for quite sometime now.
yeah realised alot of talented people as usual.
well i get to know this humble friend of mine in the saf band,
i know he is good in playing the trumpet but he is never arrogent tho.

Here's a video of him playing the Haydn Trumpet Concerto.
he's quite a cute little boy isn't he xD.

March 11

Hmm have been long ever since i last blogged.
So here i am back again to speak my mind.
Today's March 11. It's already March.
It's 5 months going to 6 months since the first day i enlisted.
Yes. I would say army life have once changed me.
Especially the torturing Ninja company.
I've seen many people.
How people will react under a huge stress.
A side which people will show when they are being tortured.
They may seem to be so nice at the start. All these, are just before the tough times.
There's no such thing as buddy or friends when people are being place under a harsh and tough condition. Selfish humans. Yes true indeed. World's cruel and man are selfish.

Now in Band. living condition is alot better.
but when people are too free, they tend to gossip alot.
which is something i cant stand.
Gossip here gossip there.
Yes saf band are filled with talented people.
which on the other hand, they think that they're way too smart that they start to judge people inside out.

What a world. But what can i say? what can i do to bring a stop to all these?
It's all outta my control. i guess what i can do now or rather the only thing i can do now is to protect my family and my love ones.
I guess i failed.
Yes i did.
i failed to stop something which cast another phobia to me in my life.
Money. i lost my hope, trust and sense of security to money.
Simple-minded. Never a good thing.
I'm wondering why whenever i tried to stop something bad from happening, it'll still happen.

WHY WONT YOU PEOPLE JUST HEED MY ADVISES?
What's the point of regretting after that?
Not everything in life have got a turnback.
Once you walked the wrong path, you'll just sank in it.
Right now i just hope i can get my degree as soon as possible.

After that i'll and definately join the police force.
as my aim in life is to destroy all these evil hearted crooks.
i dare not say im doing it for the republic of singapore.
But at least i'm doing it to protect my family and love ones.
If one is to know that one's son or husband is a police,
will they still dare to lay their fingers or evil motives on them?