what a day.
im super tired. damned tired.
big re-arrangement of the shop layout.
shifting this, shifting that.
carrying heavy loads, wiping heavy dusty shelfs.

2 big bosses came down today.
im being told about the arrangement of the shop
so im the one telling the uncles which shelf is to be removed,
which shelf is to be shifted and placing location.

Boss told me this instead of my supervisor yesturday.
and my supervisor is so happy laughing away saying " dylan ah... i don't know ah... u tell uncle tan n the others what to do tml ah. i dont know anything huh. "

Just being told by boss that she is going switch to my supervisor to HR to do office work instead... soon...
added on by telling me to look after the shop and the workers.
Shit man what this suppose to mean?
im the solo "supervisor" now?
i hope my supervisor remain.

i can sense bigger responsibilities and bigger authority.
in fact the whole of it now.
is being the best a good thing?
work load most likely should be roughly the same
just that im kind of enjoying the full authority now.

i just joinned in april. now's only may. and im this position.
kind of contented in a sense.
haizzzz everyone is looking upon me.
i feel stress. they are treating me like im a genius, trusting me everything.
work stress, hoping that my girl will be sensible and good.
but man she's giving me down time lately as well.
haizz.
how am i suppose to pull through and withstand these?
Nvm.. i will just keep swallowing everything in and see how long can i last.

Giving Care and Concern is a drain.
Giving and not being appreciated is a pain.
I really have had enough of these.
I am not judging based on one incident.

Why should i care?
Why should i bother?
When PEOPLE don't give a damn.
when PEOPLE rather said it's better without your care.

I've never bothered nor concern for anything before.
Why should i start now?
I should just continue being who i really is.

NOT GIVING A SHIT.
It's now, that i'm taking everything back.
It's now, that i'm washing my hands off everything.

Maybe the truth is just i dont even matter to anyone at all. LOL.
what a big big disappointment... again =D
i dont wish to feel anymore.

People say only the one you truely care can hurt you most and kill you as well.
and it's only that person who got the ability to change you totally.
finally someone managed to get in,
but what turn out is something that totally drain you off.

For so much hurt that are being inflicted on you,
you swallowed.
hoping one day that one truely understand.
Disappointment turns out upon hope.

i cant bring myself to walk away totally without care,
you did.
i cant bring myself to say that i wanna leave,
you did.

the moment u did,
you killed me.

just came back from work.
Big boss came over today.
oh man. she said something that i dont know whether i should be happy or what.
she said im doing well in the shop.
she also mentioned that my level now is same as my supervisor.
oh man? then what? im supervisor now? two supervisors in the shop?

she said she trust me so much that she can just give me the keys for the shop.
so next time i can just open the shop myself without having people to come open the gates. why do i even need the keys? i dont wan such big responsibilities.

she also told me to look after the shop and look after the other part timers.
make sure they dont play around in the shop and scold them if they are naughty.

im like the newest here? if i get such a authority and being the newest part timer in the shop, what will people think.

so what am i now? part timer or supervisor.

Big boss held a discussion with another co-boss, and asked me to joined in the discussion regarding the shop major change of outlook. WHY... the hell am i involved in the discussion man? im a part timer?! -_-.

Alright... i guess im no longer a part timer. or a part timer who is the same level as a supervisor. oh whatever lah. give me authority i just take lor. bu na bai bu na.

yawned

zzz.
days at work is really boring.
and stress ... as sales are counted individual. no sales = boss will start to talk.
Assed ! I'm just a part-timer remember? dont treat me like im a assistant shop manager. i know boss n supervisor trust and like me very much tho. but dont everything also count on me la cmon -_-. Computer spoil also appoint me to fix. if supervisor not here im being appointed to look after all the other part timers. HELLO? IM THE NEWEST PART TIMER TO JOIN LEH! shouldn't it be them looking after me? I dont get higher pay. just a little extra privileges to buy alittle extra for staff and ... my words does matters to the boss's and supervisor's ear? but man that's not worth for all these at all.

I got a feeling if another part timer is coming in. i will be appointed to assist in teaching. -________________-. Now im starting to think is being too trustworthy a good thing? you earn the trust of everybody.. and your load and responsibilities are heavier.


and... seriously...
SOME CUSTOMERS REALLY DIGUST ME.. ALOT

Tomorrow gonna work again.
Boss's dropping by again.
Wonder what is she going to say

-________________-.
IM A PART TIMER LAH
dont everything also ask dylan ask dylan ask dylan

can? -.-

Just got back from work.
tiring.
im tired because i spend the whole day daydreaming.
my mind's tired.
yawned.
i stone for the whole day.
practically wasted my day.
xDD.


Hmm.. hope everyone is doing fine.
esp my gf and me =DD

i thought i moved on before you.
but seem like i'm the one lagging behind.
xD.
am i?

no matter how close,
we all distant one day.

I am glad u moved on anyway.
although the you now don't seem like the one i know.
but it's alright x).

This applies for anyone else.
No matter how close you are to me, whoever you are,
one day if u decided to leave somehow,
just tell me and i'll let u go.

No worries as i have already expected it.
there's no forever buddy.
there's no forever friends.

World's a crap itself isnt it?
No wonder it's gonna end.

I don't find life in anything
why is that so?
everything seems so boring......

Boring...
Boring...
Boring...

Yawns.

Maybe the only one i wanna be with is my baobei.

Oh man. im going for a checkup at the eye later.
Hope my doctor give me a good clarification and solutions of what can be done.

shit i think im going for another surgery.

-______________________-

Work hard towards my goal.

WORK HARD
WORK HARD
WORK HARD
WORK HARD

TRAIN HARD
TRAIN HARD
TRAIN HARD
TRAIN HARD

No, we're not close anymore.
No, please stop fooling yourself.
No, it's not misunderstanding.


Yes, there's no forever close friends.
Yes, there's no forever brothers.

Sooner or later,
we all distant one day.
Seems so true =DD.

Hope this won't happen between my family and my future wife.