Where am i heading?

So busy working that i no longer know myself. today is 12th of april. every 12th of the month my company staff get to buy maximum 3 different items of different types in the store. staff price range from 30% to 40%. Entitled 3 items. i bought 2. its till after that i realised i bought all 2 which isnt for myself. 2 woman top. my boss asked who am i buying for. i said for my girlfriend.

My boss said i must be doting on her very much as im wasting 2 rights of mine as a staff to buy sometin which isnt for myself at all. its only then i realised... i did. i actually bought somethin for her instead of for myself. -_-. I seldom or rather never put anyone before myself.

Hope she worth me doing this.

Have been feeling down. Guess i kept too much things inside. wanted to find ways to say out or vent it out. but just cant. But who will understand me? No one like a unhappy guy isnt it.

But im just faking that smile outta my face. -____-. is that the guy u want?