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Received a call from my model agency ytd. i was told that selected models get to be sorta "cultivated" by a big client. i was told to be one of the shortlisted models. get to enjoy facial at price of $35 where package is $85. Others was sponsored by the client. on top of that still get $20 allowance.

i was thinking... u wanna cultivate us. why not just sponsor 100%. =DD. zzzzz. modelling line makes me really sianned. everything's realistic and practical. x.x . who wan facial ... tell me. price at only $35. just say u are frost from i models . LMAO. zzzzz.

This world really make me really tired. the humans..... really disgust me. x.x ranging from young to old. i hate this realisitc, complicated world. how nice if everyone is just nothing but true to you, wholehearted.

No matter how close... they all distant when time goes by. Have been giving myself more than enough chance to bluff myself that it's not true. but facts are still facts. so vividly. Yeah that smile on my face... seem so real. -ed.

I dare not hope. Dare not dream. just do my best in life.

How i hope people dont change. Can one remain the same? I dun wish for forever but at least for one lifetime?