whadddd?

An Empty Heart.

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 15:12:00 +0000

Who am i?
i no longer know.
what should i be doing in the days to come?
i dont fucking know.
am i able to trust people again?
it's fucking NO.
am i able to love again?
its the same old NO.
am i still be able to differ between right and wrong?
its NO NO NO.
am i still able to differ bettwen the good and bad?
NO!

You totally convinced me that you don't care at all no matter how hard i try to believe in you.
There's no point kept blaming and scolding yourself as that won't result in anything positive. Learn, reflect and change, that's something that one should do instead.

Im totally lost now.
I cant accept this outcome for all the effort and time i've spend.
Human beings, fuck it.

Finally the days are over

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 08:27:00 +0000

POP LO!
Finally outta hell.
OUTTA NINJA!
fresh air fresh beginning.
just returned from guard duty at ammo dump.
most haunted guard place in tekong.
forested area. booOoOoOoOo . shivers*

but its quite a good experience.
get to see alot of spiders
damn alot!!
Size of the spider is as big as my hand. no joke man.
So we have to actually destroy their web to clear the way.
too bad spiders XD.

Ammo dump area.
dark..... really dark.
the most interesting part is that we get to draw live rounds.
wooo. but too bad we cant anyhow shoot. =(.
if not i'll find a wild boar to shoot. xDD.
But somehow the night ended fast.
Guess maybe i have a friend to tok to during duty which mkes time pass easier.

Hmmm here's the garang part.
after a night of guard duty,
i went for a swim after that.
haha!!
enegetic right. Thank you thank you.
xD.

Right now im very free!!
i have got... a week left of holidays.
So grab me while im still free. xD
Guess im ending it now =D.

Before that i would like to say
i've learnt to cherish my family !
thanks to ninja
thanks for treating me like a dog.
thanks for all the torture which makes me suffer hard
which force me to truely know how to cherish.

I LOVE MY FAMILY =D.
I LOVE MY MOM =D

the end~

The post before going army

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 07:06:00 +0000

I going army tomorrow. so guess this is the last post before NS. yup.
its weird that i dont feel anything before NS. certainly ppl will feel at least something... like nervous, excited, gloomy, down, etc. For me, i felt absolutely NOTHING.
weird ! -___-. is it weird? not sure i guess thats me as usual lmao. hahahaha.

Will be out i guess 2 weeks later? as like most of the people say i suppose? 2 weeks? Hope everything go well for my family, love ones, friends and me =D.

GOOD LUCK GUYS !!!

KEEP IN TOUCH!

add me in my new email is u haven.

dylan_liao1989@hotmail.com

takecare.

ARMY TIME!!!!

A little present for our 8months together x)

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 03:34:00 +0000

I know some of you may find that the song isn't suitable to be place in this kind of video. BUT..... I dont really care x)

Pictures from KTV

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 09:12:00 +0000

Here's some pictures from friday's KTV session x))))

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 16:10:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 04:12:00 +0000

Boring day.
blog has been wordy.
so i guess i shall upload afew pictures.
=DDD. hmmmm.
Random pictures.

Our neoprint

Script

hmmm

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:03:00 +0000

Have been something since i last blogged. my mind i would say is getting tired as i have make a damn lots of mistakes recently. Let's just talk about today. well. i went to catch a movie named blood ties with joann. so yeah we approach the counter and asked for 2 tixs.

when the tixs sorta came out from the tix machine, i streched out my hands to pull the tixs. when supposely it's the job of the counter staff. so yeah she wanted to pull and i make a move ahead of her so our hands sorta bumped into each other. i dont know why the hell did i stretch my hands to pull the tickets. -____-. im dreaming man.

Another thing would be i spill the cup of ice at the food court on the same day. -____-. im losing concentration of what im doing. i find it hard to focus on things that im doing. oh crap.

Well... tml i have gotta get up early n head to mediacorp again. have got a shooting going on. im getting bored of acting seriously. when i see the caller ID of my hp which read the name of my agent, i sorta got a sianned feeling overcome me. lol. i guess i knw tt i have gt another shooting on again.

acting is not fun tho. it's just like another job where ppl head to everyday, bringing their sian diao feeling along. LMAO.

I would like to ask if 企鹅爸爸 is showing now on tv. i didnt watch tho. so if it's showing now n anyone get to come across it, pls tel me the showing timing n stuffs.

Guess that's all.
good luck and good nite XD

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 13:48:00 +0000

x)). yawns.
hmmmmm...
mediacorp people's alittle blur on wednesday.
actually that day is got shooting at a pub.
then on that day itself,
when we have already arrived at the destination,
they realised they booked the wrong area.
which is not suitable for shooting.
so that day shooting is being cancelled.

But not bad, at least i got free $$ for that day.
hope everyday is like that. LOL.
got to make a new friend too.
i think it sorta become a make-friend-session.
xDD.
But well didnt get to flirt with the Janet tho (actor in the show)
im wondering is it ling xiang ping or the other girl(dont know what's her name).

xiang ping look chio which her rebonded hair. weeuwee.
haha. hmm dont know when the shooting wil be postoned until.
well... just got myself an enhancement operation for my right eye yesterday (thursday). walau. who say not pain. LOL.
i guess my eye isn't sensitive enough to let the numb eye drops take effect.

i felt and saw the whole thing tho.
the doctor cutting your cornea n everything.
my heartbeat is heavy. can feel it slowing down.
o.o.
people go throught operation once.
i gone through twice... hmm. well but at least vision's better now.
omgf swollen eyes. HOW TO ACT! T.T
have to rest well.....
hope the acting day would be postone till the day whereby i already recover.
so i can make up =D. but... i guess that would be hard.
coz... it takes 2 weeks here to at least can do hair n make up.
=(. maybe i have to give the role to people le.
awww. zz-ed

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 16:56:00 +0000

3 blog posts at one go.
haha power.
guess today really filled with emotions and stuffs.
Hmmm. alright go for something not so emotional now. haha.
Well.. my blog has been wordy. Guess i should upload afew pictures =]].

But before that, i would like to announce something.
Please support the new show that i will be acting in.
Show title: 想握你的手
Role: 有型男
Role's duty: kena flirt by a woman.

LMAO. funny right.
alright here's some random pictures

im xiao meimei ^^ (tied by supervisor)

my pay cheque finally (so little)

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 16:26:00 +0000

My supervisor and I had a little misunderstanding just now.
She cried infront of me.
Guess she really cherish the relationship between us.
she thought i doubt her and that she's selfish.
which actually i didn't and wont cause i know her too well.
Guess she really mind how i think of her because we have been on really good terms.
we're more than just supervisor and partner relationship.

well she's like a big sister to me.
always protecting, praising and playing with me.
her words today really touched me.
when she thought that i doubt her,
she's very anxious and also very sad.
she said , in chinese of course...

"Dylan.. u have been working here for quite sometime.
I have been working here for 1year plus i haven been so close with a part timer before. u're like a younger brother to me. i told u everything and anything which i've never told anyone before. working with you i am really very happy as u really brighten up my life. i really cherish the relationship between us. u cant doubt me like this. i can be selfish to everyone else but not to u. u should know me. i really cherish our relationship. Even if u're not wrking here we will stil keep in touch. u're a v good and kind boy. u're a fren tt i really cherish and wont regret making..."

i didnt doubt her at all tho.
it's not like i mind that commission at all for just $5.
the company policy is that for each individual who do $500 a day get extra $5.
she did $517
i did $485
she thought that i blame her for not trying to help me get that extra $15 when i tried to her help many other times before. she offered that the $5 that she get for achieving $500, we spilt half.
i told her " u ok with it?"
what i meant is that i feel paiseh for spilting the $5 commission with her.
but she thought that i blamed her for like being selfish and stuff.
so that's the misunderstanding.

But it's this misunderstanding which make me realised more that she's really a good friend and partner. really hard to find one who really cherish nowadays.
felt sry for this little misunderstanding which made her cry.

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 16:02:00 +0000

just came back not long.
hmm saw 2 letters on my table.
one is the credit card bill.
one is my pay cheque.
my bill...
400+. sianned.
i spend on eat eat eat eat eat !
-__-.

my pay cheque.
from mediacorp.
so happy and sian diao in a sense.
the pay cheque only pay for my 2nd working day which is 24 july.
the 22 july pay dont know fly till where.
i guess it's the switching of blue to yellow paper agreement that causes confusion.

haiyo... guess tml have to contact my agent liao.
mafan mafan mafan!!
why that guy dont just do it properly.
tell me earlier that blue paper for above 21 ma.
then dont need to switch here and there.
in the end i guess should be you either write wrong address or what.
my pay dont know deliver to which household.

jia wei ah jia wei~~~~
how can you like that..... LOL.
u are going to get a scolding from my agent or mediacorp liao.
sry in advance. =l

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 16:08:00 +0000

what am i still asking for?
I no longer know.
Seriously.
I'm planning a family outing next month.
planning to go chalet.
hmm everything is almost properly done.
chalet has been booked, activities planned as well.
7 7 8 8 liao i guess.

Although the world and life may be complicated,
but sometimes things can be really simple as well.
i dont know why...
when i saw my mom planning what to buy for BBQ,
suddenly i felt really happy inside.
I guses im happy because i know she is very happy and excited about it.
i know my mom suffered alot all the way from the past.
So i really wanna do things which can make her happy.

a family outing.
something which seem so simple,
we didnt really have it.
Guess it's always dad who is missing out.
and sooner or later when i didnt even noticed, im missing out.

The reason im organising this and am really firm about it is because,
i wanna make my mom happy, really happy this time.
when she's happy, i am.
reason being she's really a great mom.
really great.

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 17:03:00 +0000

no matter how close,
we all distant one day.
no matter how well treated by you in the past,
it all belongs to the past, everything,
from that day i confronted you and you said it's a misunderstanding,
i know it's not and it's all the way up till today that make it so vividly clear that i should let it go.
Reality really slap you right at the face.
Stop whining for the past and accept the harsh present.
Move on.

Im starting to ask myself,
why am i so serious?
why did i hold on to it so dearly?
why did i speak up for this relationship when it's being stepped on?
why say that it's different?

I've regretted cherishing our so closely bonded relationship which seemed so true.
I've regretted opening up myself once again for you, trouncer.
I've got nothing but whole lot of disappointment in the end.
i am disappointed in our relationship,
disappointed in you,
disappointed in myself for trusting and treating you for real.

Let me tell you and myself once again
We are no longer the same.
and Damn...
It's no misunderstanding.
Alright?

Guess I won't be the same anymore.
hahaha! =D

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 13:48:00 +0000

Went for the second shoot on friday.
hmm this time there's a change in director.
a better one i would say...
as she's not as pek chek as the previous one.
haha.

well.. the who... im not sure of his name.
acting as Waymen in the show, is still having alot of NGs as usual.
OPPS!!!!
got one time he NG with a mispronounsation of qi shi to chee-se (sound like cheese)
i cant hold my laughter i laughed abit.
some looked at me tho and i just acted as if im coughing.

=X.
that was close..
haha.
it all ended quite early..
only around 3hours...
So after shooting i went to have lunch with valerie and wilfred.
they are two of the actors in the show.

It was funny tho for that day.
wilfred thought im am a pei jiao in the show.
he thought i am a celebrity.
as he said that people seemed to know me.
the people working at the wardorbe,
the celebrities as well.
lol what a misunderstanding.
im just a small fry.
aww.
x)) but better than nothing ba. haha.

it's a sad thing tho as supposely i have got another show to act in.
if im not wrong the show is 当我们同在一起
but the schedule timing clashes with 企鹅爸爸
so... i guess i have to give it a miss.
Aww what a waste.
hope chances wont slipped by again.
mmhmm x))

2nd agreement with mediacorp

was getting bored and so i took a pic in the make-up room x))

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 15:55:00 +0000

Today is my first day at mediacorp.
acting in the chinese drama show 企鹅爸爸.
small fry ^^. but still there's portions of me.
catch me if u want.
Damn..
I must say acting is tough.
really man.

Not only must you remember your script,
u still must be able to act it out
this is just the very very very minimum basics.
it's till invovling in the act that i realised there's alot more.

Damn man the lightings are all over you,
above u, behind u, etc.
the wires n stuffs... no joke.
it may seem like it's spacious in the show.
but damn... it's really cramped when u're acting.
u may just bump onto the lightings or trip on wires.

U must also take note of your posture, angle and location.
u can be shooting for quite sometime n suddenly director wanted to go back to which scene.
n you must go back to that scene just exactly where you are standing, posing and angle direction.
like even a finger wrong also will kena scold one. lmao.

really very easy for a NG.
Plus the fact the place where we're acting is a office building.
Ppl are working there while we're there acting.
lol is like what a disturbance...
to it us or them.
they watched quietly, cant concentrate in their work. lol.

one thing i must add is the despite all these,
most important is the director.
but for what i see.
most directors are cranky and short tempered. lol.
get pek chek easily. but can joke too if things are well.
i got teased by director.
he nicknamed me 斑马哥.
keep 斑马哥 here and there.
the reason why he called me that is because there's a celebrity acting as 小马 in the show.
so he think it would be best to give me a 马 nickname.
Im wearing stripe top.. soo.... ya i got this 斑马哥 nickname。

Today's director is alittle short tempered.
he will scold you for every little thing.
even celebrity.
other than the bigger shots like ann kwok n the other guy... forgotten his name.
lol.
heng i never really kena his scolding.

i just blurred out in one rehearsal.
looking at ann kwok while im suppose to give expression and walk away.
so director teased that i am admiring ann kwok that im draming.

Today, interesting, tiring, boring too .
lol. ACTING IS TOUGH!

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 07:14:00 +0000

Forgive and Forget.
that's so not true.
one can forgive.
but how can one forget.
unless there's a brainwash.

For every forgiveness given i asked myself.
what's the point and why.
i know why.
But this time round,
i dont know why i did?

Is it because i know that she will become a better person?
No i dont know.

Is it because i know she's still as pure and innocent as before?
No i dont know.

I guessed the main reason is because i still love her.
How shallow is this reason,
i asked myself.

How many more nonsenses that she's coming out?
i asked myself.

How long more can i hold?
i asked myself.
When she's not sensible enough to think and understand.

WHEN THE HELL WILL SHE UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH EFFORT I'VE PUT IN AND PUT UP FOR THIS R/S EH?
I guess im not only her bf, but her father as well.

It's scientific proven that getting pissed(a hot reactor personality), will shorten your life span, causing harmful effects to your body system and disrupt heart functions.

Are you trying your best to kill me eh?
so please, do what im pleased to see.

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Tue, 14 Jul 2009 05:41:00 +0000

slept at nearly 5am yesterday.
-.-.
floaty head for today.
planned to visit the dentist.
dont know when am im moving.
plan to do some exercise.
maybe later.

im tired.
and i guess my health is slipping abit.
i should really do more exercises liao.
and have more tonic.
lmao.
Should i go back to slp instead?

yawns!
Hope people i care can be more sensible and understanding.
it's then that i can feel more brighten up.
x)))

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 05:06:00 +0000

lol. a friend of mine just gave birth to a baby.
she's 19years old this year.
she's so happy about it.
a baby with no father.
just picked any guys from the street to be a dad.

Be more responsible please.
i doubt this kid is going to be a well-bred kid.
with a mom like that.
it's funny.
don't think it's easy to raise a kid girl.
u know shit about it and u know shit about life.

i seriously, despise empty brain kid like you.
as i always said.
IF YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO TEACH YOUR KIDS,
DONT HAVE ANY!

I pity that newborn baby.
really pity him.
people this irresponsible,
should so die early.
reduce pollution of mankind.

Even for adults.
dont just think that you're an adult and u can speak like u're 100% right.
it's reasonable and logical reasons that determines right and wrong.
not your fucked up age.
grow some brains if one isn't functioning properly for you.

Disgusted.
Totally disgusted.
Brainless Humans.
_|_

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 21:39:00 +0000

I dont know what's so special today that i actually woke up at 5am.
i cant get back to sleep no matter what.
so i guess i might as well just get my ass up now and blog.
lmao-ed.

Smell of the early morning, it has been long.
long long long..... since i last smelled this.
haha. how .... pure. love it.

Mood's better now.
just by smelling this scent of early morning.
hair's getting longer now which is making me feel uncomfortable.
Maybe i should get it cut one of these days.

im thinking what should i do now.
planning to go for a jog tho.
but kind of lazy. haha.

Even thought of going to over her house to give a surprise
and drive her to school.
but nah... guess maybe not.

guess i shall just stick my ass here till it's time for me to head for work.
haaaha.
Should i just prank call somebody? some strangers? =DD

Alright im mad. -_- .
maybe later i'll get tired and head back to sleep.
who knows?

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 05 Jul 2009 15:31:00 +0000

yes please.
talk back.
yes. there's no point talkin nor explaining.
i got it.

why did i even feel hurt?
i thought i've already been totally numbed.
guess when things are just picking up,
something has to be done to bring me down.

just when im there eagerly waiting,
you're there sleeping.
Just when i started questioning,
i just get a.." ok fine den.. No point explaining oso.. im tired n i need to rest. "

Guessed u had a hard day.
SO AM I OK!
just when im starting to feel u back,
just when i needed u most,
you're not there but it's just...
everything of you that is coming back to destroy everything, again.

Im a joke.
it's so funny that i cant stop laughing at myself again and again.
it's so funny that i think im laughing, to "death".

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 18:05:00 +0000

World's a lie.
untrustable piece of crap.
what am i suppose to do?
ahh just fuck it

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 15:52:00 +0000

alright.
bag being stolen.
my boss had a little meeting with me.
didnt scold me. in fact still say she know im a good boy.
Said that she still trust and like me very much.
She asked why did my performance slipped recently.

Sadly, i dont know.
she asked is it that i quarreled with my gf.
nah i didnt.
she said mable told her im acting very moody at work.
she even said i dont wish to talk to her.

LoL. cmon. u have something wrong inside.
i dont even know what can i talk with you man.
Even the boss knows that.
She told me...

" I know mable have gt something wrong.
something wrong with her brain or something.
that she is acting and speaking weird. "

this is funny tho.
but still...
fuck. i need to pay for the loss.
bag stolen.. its $128.

Boss told me that the most she can help is by giving a 40% discount.
and spilt the cost by half.
that will be around 30+ to pay.
STILL... im not happy about the pay deduction.

But i guess it's like that.
bag is stolen when im there..
or is it not?
whatever it is... i still need to pay.

crappy mable. STOP TALKING NONSENSE.
i understand that u have a bad condition up your brain.
But man it's actually costing harm to supervisor and myself as well.
So... will you please stop speaking without thinking?

I guess u wouldn't listen as i understand your F**ked up condition.
-_-. im working with a weirdy.
One more thing i would like to add on is that....
I DONT REALLY LIKE THE GUY BOSS =DD.

But nvm.. as long as the female boss and supervisor still dote me,
that's enough. im staying.
I really like my supervisor tho.
She is even better than my blood related sister man.
^^v.

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 18:05:00 +0000

today im feeling down.
really down.
Customer lodge a complain on me.
Maybe it's my fault for selling a faulty item to her.
but this make me realise something.

No matter how well u do,
a small little mistake can ruin all your reputation.
can ruin trust, faith.
i dont trust u lady boss.
u are disappointed in me.
So am i. im disappointed in u too.

why am i working so hard for your rundown company?
why am i trying to push sales for you?
why am i keeping everything in order for you?
when a little thing u can mention about disappointment in me.

Stop finding faults.
No one perfect.
no matter how u wanna think.

It doesn't change the fact.
fact being im the best so far.
the best "part-timer" of AMCO in history

If u are not happy,
you can Sack me.
Try sacking me...
and see how many will leave you,
how many will still respect and work for you.

noreply@blogger.com (Dylan Frost) — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 04:27:00 +0000

oh crap.
so bored that im posting 2 posts on a single day.
=D. haha.
hmm. Seriously i seem to be getting bored of girls.
errr that doesn't mean im gay or what. -.-.

just... they don't seem interestin to me. lol.
i prefer to have more guy friends than girl friends.
i cherish guys more than girls . x).
but most guys seem to pay more attention to girls.
girls girls girls. not boring ah u ppl?

Im glad i have friends who feel just the same way as me, somehow.
cherish guys more than girls.
need more of such people to chill out with me.

Right now, i just wanna enjoy life and..
at the same time tryin my best to figure and plan for my future.
hope everything go on smooth for me and my love ones.

Inside me, there's only this one special girl who managed to capture my heart.
as long as she stay how she's like (but with lesser nonsense please), i guess i'll still find life meaningful. x).

i love u.